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September 25, 2016

Alternate Dimensions, Other Worlds and Partial Correlation

Filed under: alternate dimension, metaphysics, other world, philosophy — rainfeeder @ 2:33 am

alternate dimensions other worlds and partial correlation:

it is most likely naive to assume that everyone lives in the same world, with all the same people, also that when people meet, true correlation is the case when most likely it is not, that what is transmitted from another person regarding it, is not exactly received or that the signal carrying the data is not accurately interpreted about that person, that what we sense about another person does not correspond exactly to what that person is all about. real distance in space, and mutation of signal, signal loss, and inaccuracies in interpretation to replicate what is going on at a distance, mean that true correlation may be foolish fancy. that the system in place in this reality is well engineered is an assumption that must be undermined.

in the beginning, certainly, we were not in the same world, not by a long shot actually. constant communication and even rapid advances in communication in recent times still does not mean that we all live in the same world now even. indeed, we may still assume that everyone is still in their own world, an earth-like version, and though it might seem that two people are in the same world, one might be in an alternate dimension to the other, even though they meet. to apply numbers, for example, two people who meet may both believe they are on Earth, but the correlation figure for their two worlds might only be 86%, that the geography might not fully agree is one point, the other is that the two sets of the people in both worlds might not is the other point.

to give an example, two people might both walk along the same street in a busy city, but one sees fewer people than the other, and also sees people that the other does not see. we must admit that the sets or networks of people that the two are in may be different. why should they be the same in any case? social networks are formed by forging links between people in real space, are they not, and if we assume that this task is more difficult, that the system is not fully connected, then are individual networks not different?

that the system is far from perfect and that individual projection fields that render what we see and hear are prone to confusion and inaccuracies means that we cannot assume that we see and hear people truly. there are the factors of random application and inflation to consider also. that the signal must pass through all the personal zones between two people and in all probability must be flavored, if you like, or mutated, to take on that of the people in the middle or those closest in the most perhaps.

the plank underlying this argument is partial correlation, that errors exist in data transmission, that some data is not transferred, unrelated data is applied, and rendering or replication is an inexact science, so indeed, how could we all live in the same world with the same people?



August 7, 2016

Social Dynamics: The Gang of Four

Filed under: life, philosophy — rainfeeder @ 2:11 pm

social dynamics the gang of four:

given that it is far from rare, and that the median social group is often thus, let us then examine the dynamic that exists between four people, although even transient it may be, and let not how it came to be, this gang of four, trouble us, rather so how it functions be the operative question. why four? is two or three not enough?

a gang, a party, an expeditionary force, to expedite matters in life or business, renders the individual qualms about being on your own, to rest, the total of a gang of four is more than the sum of each member parts, which is why! role playing, even board games, these things don’t function for the player in isolation, not only are other people required to operate such, to state all gain from such! we need someone physically capable, we need someone cerebral, we need a wizard mayhap, we need someone adept, maybe we need more in this crew!

skills that contribute to the welfare of the party, for the mission in life, to the bitter end if need be, make up the set of talents core to the group. primary to the cohesive nature of the gang is a facility for easy interaction, an agreement on secular matters at least, there are a range of issues to debate over time.

why not less? why not be alone? and so searching for something, best described as moving toward a common goal is what molds the group and holds it fast.

a common identity becomes them. what trace the gang of four leaves remains within them.


July 25, 2016

A Metaphysical Trap

Filed under: metaphysical trap — rainfeeder @ 12:23 pm

a metaphysical trap:

for several times today, yet i feel myself again and for now, this once, i can do what i want! and i can do whatever i please. you know what i mean? what’s new in my life? what’s it like to have it all? why do i have to do this, this thing of mine, surely it could wait. the next level up!

o dear! what have we here? a reminder, shard. i can’t believe it! why so sudden?! what’s happened of late. surely i can escape the past? it’s overrated, redress you me!

blocked ways, and for the guilty and the innocent, one mistake leads to another! when it happens, it seems it all happens at once! a sort of paranoic haze envelops the mind, in which it is difficult to escape. the paranoid mind is a trap in itself, to be honest, the mind just boggles! but what are the clues? to be meta about it!

a true 3D guide, we would conspire to get it! therefore avoid traps in general, not a downer, yet eventually we could learn to reflect upon life better and away from that.

what of it? what is it? where is it? how? cards we play, castles we love, and marriage, prosperity, serenity, tranquility, and friends forever, the life beyond mortality, the proving chamber, the track of life upon which we sweat our lives away. yet what of abandon, what of longing, and yet what of hope?


Alles Ist Zehn auf zu Wissel Zehn hein

Filed under: Heute — rainfeeder @ 12:53 am

alles ist zehn auf zu wissel zehn hein:

“Reis und Schein…auf dem…Hören die Welt…aus Geben…Du dar…Was Ist denn Los…aus!”
“Sie Kommt.” “Welken Sie Bäde.”
“Alles Ist Zehn auf zu Wissel Zehn.”
“So Ist Denn Fahlen…Was Ist Los?”
“So Friede Seinen!” “Helga…Was Ist Los?”


July 20, 2016

On Size and Weighting the Issue

Filed under: personal, size — rainfeeder @ 6:37 pm

on size and weighting the issue:

the key issue in the future is whether anything continues or not so that what is not apparent might not happen at all. this is to say that that that is not well remembered may not even exist metaphysically and so that there is no need to dwell on it. what is past may recur only slightly in the future as a shaded repeat like an alternative timeline.

who is she? what will she do next? what is real and what is apparent is that she continues to say the least.

the size of the problem illustrated by the past for decades yet is what concerns mental convolutions. that is to say that i can yet still remember, whether fortuitously or not. lack of sufficient memory blocks further thought sometimes and only fragments of voices or mood of the past may remain.

weight that large then and the alternative nothing. am i prepared still?

clearly the size of mental capacity is what concern. what of my physical dexterity and emotional tolerance? who i am is clear to me. very much is the case that i do not dwell on the future but mayhap my present is certainly not wondrous to think of.


July 16, 2016

The Rank of the Norm

Filed under: ectra, emotion, lecre, peristrait — rainfeeder @ 7:08 am

the rank of the norm:

the machine, the electricity that flows, the switch, the button, and what you see? take for example, the miniature plastic rubber doll, with heavy duty batteries, see it move, see it dance, hear it sing, a trophy doll in the presentation package.

persistent stress, persistent strain, peristrait in bed. what next? once i get out of bed, i need to level up!

emotionally speaking there is fear, anger, hate, love, want, happy, sorrow. not in any particular order. normal, what is it? the capacity to cope in the situation. however we are also guided by other forces, other emotions, other electric parts of ourselves. what of longing, what of hope, what of funny, indeed what new terms can there be?

electric, then perhaps lecre and ectra could explain motivation in life, if you know what i mean!

suggesting that emotions might be more important that reasoning, that some will not be held back by any logical argument preventing them from proceeding with their planning for life.


June 17, 2016

Alternative Timeline and Theoretical Time Travel

Filed under: alternative timeline — rainfeeder @ 8:58 am

alternative timeline and theoretical time travel:

just like the past. fill in the gap. now onward. i sense something. don’t get mixed up. streaming it. pulling it. don’t slip. we are just sampling the past. the present. the future. fill in the pattern.


The Corona Stakes

Filed under: horse racing — rainfeeder @ 8:07 am

the corona stakes:

on this day…this great occasion…


at the post…


May 31, 2016

The Paradigm of 3

Filed under: mathematics, numerical analysis — rainfeeder @ 10:57 am

the paradigm of 3:

1 and 2 and 3
then 3 went on to 6

and 9
and 10

now 5 is preceded by 4 is it not
and 7 followed by 8

and 11 by 12

round to 8 again
5 sides
besides 9
how to get to 10?

well 10 divided by 5 is 2 is it not?
add 8 to get to 10 which is
besides 9 or rather
beside 9 which is
beside 8

iff or if and only if you start at the end
which is 10

and it starts with 1 or zero


May 21, 2016


Filed under: Modern Latin — rainfeeder @ 12:27 pm


which happened afterwards, all those things that we did, left behind in the past, to the town fair we went, i spoke, praising such, and show to you, behold this large event.


May 7, 2016

Theory Has Constraints

Filed under: constraint, death, space, time — rainfeeder @ 8:57 pm

theory has constraints:

post partum in excelsis, motive interest can be explained by short term demand which naturally expires, in short success or solution might be adequately provable by equation or formula over time.

in the event that nothing can explain duration, only that the past prevails and becomes more significant over time, not that time explains everything but which that happened.

to sense what is not observable exactly is a criteria of existence and what is it all about anyway?

Se + Li + So + Re < WHOLE


Constraint in Hyperbolic Potential

Filed under: hyperbolic — rainfeeder @ 7:23 pm

constraint in hyperbolic potential:

other theoretical motions indicate possibilities that can only be discounted by applying constraints, for in total consideration, not everything is observed to be in contact.
time in motor situation seems different from static and is not often memorable.
when situational change is not observed theoretically space is not stable and the line of travel indistinct.


May 5, 2016

Amylase Peptides Na Cl Salts

Filed under: mass, particle, varium — rainfeeder @ 2:49 pm

amylase peptides Na Cl Salts:

enzyme path reaction reduces complexes after relieving emitting pulse radiation and focus on NaCl in particular. route of particles from A to B through a close network of atomic structure of Na and Cl reduces chemicals. enzymes such as amylase and other peptides react with salts to produce such a chain reaction. now further study of reactions involves ketones, amino acids, platinum and ferric oxides, pentoxides, and aluminium, and sulphates, and a conceptually new chemical element varium and its trioxides and pentoxides. oxidation releases oxygen and reduction into equilibrium.


April 29, 2016

What is a Person

Filed under: jealousy, person — rainfeeder @ 7:55 pm

what is a person:

where personal gets close is where person begins.

what reason to be personal? and what is a person? how to behave? have a go, fuck it, do something. now the past prevails surely? if ever if became a concern, you must study past behaviour, surely it explains somewhat the present situation? get up and go, and start! what put this idea in my head, put a person on top? errors in the past restrict the future, indeed limit the present, why did someone not do?

have you seen the part where you noticed something and then it became personal?


April 24, 2016

Selling to Latent Demand

Filed under: economics, latent demand — rainfeeder @ 10:11 am

selling to latent demand:

LD > 0 ; LD = W + T

what latent demand is about in general is clear. what is wanted to been seen and heard, already thought about, to be experienced in real life. the tourism business flourishes, people travel around the world.

the business makes decisions. they know it will sell once available. promotion helps.

imagine it this way, you will see that, and this is the start of the process…

D < LD

when demand is smaller than supply, business becomes poor. whether this is because people take advantage of knowledge of latent demand and are quick to supply is another question. when supply for latent demand is realized, it is rarely at a price that is just right to clear the market immediately.


April 16, 2016

Name and Number: Julie

Filed under: Julie, school — rainfeeder @ 11:40 am

name and number Julie:

examine theoretically, an instance where 4 girls, name Julie, meet for a day out in London and eventually go their separate ways after lunch. they are at the same school and this is their day off.

what happens after lunch they visit a museum and shortly afterwards, one leaves to go back to school, and then two leave together, leaving the last one not knowing what to do exactly.

at school they sit in the same class, one in the front, one in the middle, and two together at the back.

why could this happen like this? suggest first that the two who pair off sit at the back together anyway and the situation becomes clearer.

whether the Julie who leaves first is the one at the front or the back is the question?

posit the Julie in the middle is probably neither very social nor very studious, the Julie at the front the most serious about class and therefore serious about the day out in London.


April 8, 2016

Schizophrenia: Loss of Affect

Filed under: loss of affect, schizophrenia — rainfeeder @ 6:55 am

schizophrenia loss of affect:

what is schizophrenia? how did it become 99th percentile measure? strange thoughts, hearing wild, what? your world unstable, you have, in a sense, disconnected, so well, what’s the building like now, where am i?

how self aware are you? how do you, as a person, affect other people? some may never say to your face, they even know what you’re thinking and what you’re going to do, yet they not let slip…

and what were you like before? actually, you’ve lost something of yourself, perhaps you are inactive now, loss of affect about you.

qualms about the world, and, not coming up with any answers, after such happened and, it all goes quiet, what disturbs the mind means loss of affect?


April 3, 2016

De Joue Vous en Prix

Filed under:, joue, prix — rainfeeder @ 9:12 am

de joue vous en prix:

en quoi de vouloir, c’est quoi de choisir, surtout vous en prix, un jeu d’amour, ce qu’elles voient, mais en prix, de langue, et l’enfant, ce qu’il demande, quoi de chose?

de penser, et de comment, parce qu’un départ pour, par exemple, de marquis de Capet du Dionne, c’est un choix de vie, il y a beaucoup de choses, pour l’homme, pour la femme, pour choisir, peu de baisse, un peu de forte. qui est-ce et ce que quoi?

merveilleux et magnifique, la pointe, c’est de la gloire, remercier, toute de rapidement.

ce qu’on voit, c’est parce qu’ils aiment de quoi, pour le choix, pour la femme, de joue vous en prix.


March 24, 2016

And That Done the Frame

Filed under: argument, frame, — rainfeeder @ 2:31 pm

and that done the frame:

how to frame the argument? we find truths that we are certain of and we put them together and make conclusions and then act upon them. is it not a leap of faith to go on anything thought about? would only disaster strike prove the theory wrong?

we try to cover all aspects of the subject, search for clues from experience, and then we move to extrapolate perhaps and theorize and categorize data and information.

at times we are hard pushed to further the frame when a ton of distraction lies in our way and often it is hard to bang on down the line and not digress from the topic. it is rather hard to concentrate, to fully attack the problem and win.

lay out the grid, try further categories, what other examples are there? expand on it. do give it a go!


March 19, 2016

The Key to Unlocking the Mess

Filed under: electronics, key, philosophy, visual — rainfeeder @ 11:10 am

the key to unlocking the mess:

you’re in a mess, what can you do about it? not much you think, but still, what could the cloud of culture particles tell me? here i sit, soaked in the atmosphere of town life, the computer and the internet environment, but the world is unstable, much has passed and gone, and i’m stuck in the past about many things.

where does it come from? what does it mean? i can imagine much, but truth be told, i don’t know. without force, i think of many things, but it goes around in a loop.

what is it all about? something pop culture, something life experience? anyway, just sitting here, www on, me thinking away… how does this make sense? need the keys to unlocking this, what idea, what concept could, if it occurred to me, would explain what the atmosphere, the cloud, here, all around me, is about?

is it travel? a car, a train, a boat, a ship? what? thought lies in the difficulty, usually. does it explain any parts i hadn’t thought of already?

generally, turning on the PC, hooking up to the internet, and so on, inevitably you think about the social network, the business network, even programming, switches in electronics, current terminology, trendy themes in the media, buzzwords as they are called, now it’s global or not, globalization, standards met, so on…

working on the blog, being regular and all, need ideas, fresh out of ideas, what do you do? go out, stew indoors, what exactly?


Schizophrenia Type I: An Intro to Life

Filed under: hear, schizophrenia, see, think — rainfeeder @ 9:33 am

schizophrenia type i an intro to life:

walking in the mist, pebbles and stones beneath feet, turning, around the bend
a figure crouched by a tree, a meeting, an instance, a precedent
now i see more, much more, the sun is rising, the colours bloom, irradiating my world
in the dusk, when i close my eyes, i still see yet
schizophrenia has begun
a rainbow swirl of colour in my world


March 12, 2016

Affect and Change

Filed under: affect, change, least bit of matter, metaphysics — rainfeeder @ 1:20 pm

affect and change:

least bits of matter, adjoined to their neighbours, porosity of space a concept, that is, gaps in between where nothing exists, when each least bit of matter changes state, it affects its neighbours.

what is space but a heap of what looks like prickly gems connected to each other? when it changes, like it’s saying become like me, or the same, speculatively, if a group of neighbours become similar, at the border, affect is less from the central least bit of matter, and what is beyond is affected by some other least bit of matter or is in itself experiencing sharp change.

the illusion of free movement, physical motion, shift, swivel, pull towards, push forwards.


March 7, 2016

Establishing Protocols

Filed under: computer, internet, player — rainfeeder @ 4:45 am

establishing protocols:

entry server, combine, swell the cloud, target server, release, recombine, rebuild.

step by step, in stages, that’s how it works, how the computers move before processing anything. really, how do computers interface with other computers, or printers, just for that matter? that was the question, and yet still is, although later it was certainly about the server and the internet, support for the server, addresses and IP.

could a computer replicate from the server? how does it interpret the signal?

technically speaking, is wireless radiation through space method of transmission? can it be embargoed or blockaded? what about the permeability of space, that the signal copied down the line, up to the server, is the same thing at the receiving end? is it a wide receiver, like a giant all band radio receiver? response time loading a page from the world wide web or www, for short, on the internet is critical in judging many things, not only the permeability of space, whether a signal can flow, how fast also, but also the distance of the server.

by random
0086 KKBF

what would make life confusing? probably not the virtual reality helmet and all round treadmill to give the illusion of physical motion, but the 3D graphics generator for the ultimate PC, don’t you think? could a computer do all that with the light? could it really talk? is the computer same as a human? here’s a thought experiment, the basic player venue simulated on your PC, only to be delighted by the processing of speech bubbles! how my PC played me!

your move
your computer move


February 27, 2016

Kere An Hour Away

Filed under: Kere, starship, travel — rainfeeder @ 8:10 am

Kere an hour away:

so, let’s imagine you’ve just bought your ship for 4,000 credits, your basic starter starship at the dealer, and you’ve settled into the seat, you’re the driver! check all the controls that adjust the view, the steer, for roll, up down for takeoff and landing, left right for turn, and throttles, check, navigation console, check. dunno how it happened, really, but with the starship they had to expand the rules of physics!

the motor car or automobile changed Earth! about moving parts, friction, heat, gauge, worn and torn parts. closed box system, how real are moving parts in the darkness?

now Kere, what system is this? why not Afik? or Edim? it seems brave, doesn’t it, to jump to another system, based on a readout from a navigation console?

to think carefully on how hyperdrive works, perhaps the windows or observation panels contain image layers of arrival points to effect arrival from hyperspace, with the radio channel tuned in to destination.

well, is it dangerous? the voyage to somewhere else always carries inherent risk, even crossing the road is dangerous, why would you want to do it? as someone who went all the way buying a ship, that is a bit obvious. but can you really fly? how many times before you passed your atmosphere driving test? the advanced planetfall course?

Kere, lush forest, sandy beaches, rolling green hills, huge city. why not?


February 20, 2016

It’s a Type

Filed under: London, person, type — rainfeeder @ 3:10 pm

it’s a type:

and you pass through a place in London like Oxford Street, you have the buses, the taxis, tourists, a crowd of people that remind you that you are not alone. in the bus from Victoria Station, it is nice, Hyde Park Corner, Park Lane, then onto Oxford Street, everyone seems lively, a lot to say. if everyone is in a world of their own, perhaps here is where they meet.

where does the Earth population, growing, where’s it come from? now Earth is one world, if you like, there was an alternate life before.

what does it seem? posh, worldly, experienced. and education is so expensive nowadays. people have a presence, what is that about, light, sound, accent, what?

i think everyone has heard of the Great Exhibition of 1851 and so London has continued, the streets a parade of people, everyone wondering what the latest thing is.


February 17, 2016

True Aspects of Solipsistic Notions

Filed under: independent, solipsism — rainfeeder @ 12:47 pm

true aspects of solipsistic notions:

so it’s true, it ain’t no one man reality, my human ego is not that big. there are others, how many lifeforms could there be?

they say two is company, three’s a crowd, one man two women or one woman and two men, but it ain’t that kind of reality either so what can one say?

that sometimes nobody could help you, you’re on your own, just seems true. that you could never be someone else with their individual senses is also true. like who saw what and when?

what’s the polar opposite of solipsism? is it dependency without sense of self?


February 15, 2016

From 1986 to About Now

Filed under: history — rainfeeder @ 12:41 am

from 1986 to about now:

in ’86, it was a fine time to be in London. it all seemed to be happening in most parts, in the East End, at Middlesex Street Market near Aldgate, the City of London, in the West End, though, it was much more quieter than now, the streets weren’t heaving with bodies like Oxford Street now on a busy day.

I read The Guardian, The Times, the opticians were professional. later on, I spotted The Tatler in a newsagent in Charing Cross Road in Chinatown, a kind of highly detailed guide of what makes snob in England, interesting at first, fresh and new, but I couldn’t keep up with my subscription much later on.

to me, London prices were cheap, I was so impressed by that, that prices have gone up times three or thereabouts in my time influences me.

Bromley, one of the other two, the other being Croydon, in the East and the South, is much changed. they place a large shopping mall in town, The Glades, it makes a lot of difference.


February 11, 2016

Instead of All That

Filed under: business, conversation — rainfeeder @ 6:11 pm

instead of all that:

“what i wanted to say to you, was, i thought you had something, not what i expected, but it worked out in the end.”

“thank you for saying that.”

“you were prepared. i thought you didn’t have it in you at first, what you managed to do, was fantastic. i’m sorry if i offended you.”

“it’s all right.”

“you’re a nitpicker, you’ve got an eye for detail, obviously.”

“do you need any more help?”

“i’ll be all right. thanks.”


February 10, 2016

I’m Right by You

Filed under: philosophy, space — rainfeeder @ 2:00 pm

i’m right by you:

in space, proximity or distance matters, always. the chain, the network, the group.

i’m right by you, i’m with you, and sometimes nothing else matters. the groups out there, they are so busy sometimes, and so are we too as well, sometimes.

well, i heard it man, and it seems true. in the meantime, guess what, i got a lot of things going on here, and good luck to you too!

we just started here, got a thing going on. thank you!


February 9, 2016

Play Or Not

Filed under: play, quodity — rainfeeder @ 8:07 pm

play or not:

“well, there’s the question, have i had enough of this? and you know, maybe there’s a limit to everything, really how far did you want to go with this, anyway.”

“go on, i mean, i have an idea how serious i am…”

“the question is, am i playing or not. let’s get off this. i’m gonna introduce a new word, quodity, what is that about? really, you have to ask yourself, what does it want out of me? you know, when the girl or guy starts asking personal questions, you know they’re interested. you’re a commodity, i don’t know about what.”

“meaning what? is it like, this is just a game or when i walk out the door, i’m gonna find out how serious it is?”

“that’s exactly it, there’s an audience there, you know it. so you’re thinking, what just happened? and i mean, really, if you’re willing to go all the way, you want the universal ideal, it could happen pretty fast.”


“i’ll come back to it again. explain yourself to yourself first.”


February 7, 2016

The No Motion Argument of No Connection to Separate Realities

Filed under: metaphysics, philosophy, separate realities — rainfeeder @ 12:22 pm

the no motion argument of no connection to separate realities:

let the null hypothesis be that separate realities hook up every night or day for some time and then leave eventually only to return again and again making a nonsense of universal time and space.

is this falsifiable? really?

note that this is reality where physical motion is not real. anyone who likes thinking about this might conclude that where physical motion is not even real such collisions and contact made are impossible.


January 27, 2016

On Packing in Space

Filed under: metaphysics, philosophy, space — rainfeeder @ 5:04 pm

on packing in space:

on drawing speculative diagrams of what space might look like, considering the possible arrangement of least bits of matter, there are clearly two broad types of chains, single width and multiple width, judging on number of points of contact.

on macro scale, that is scaling up, personal space bubbles can so be considered as well. and why do we know so little about other people? because each personal bubble space is a zone of space where there is self involvement to a great degree, least bits of matter in the zone affect each other rather more than interact with external space. the field of think is closely connected to the senses and you can only know what you think. what happens further away you sense less, it is about proximity, just as eyesight declines at a distance. containment is the concept, obviously it is not total or we would never know anything about other people.

single width chains are perhaps rare, a blockade of transitional change or flow may occur easily. where there are multiple chains or rather where least bits of matter are tightly packed communication is freer as there are several routes of flow.

it seems that there must be vacuums in space, where matter does not exist. least bits of matter do not make complete contact with their neighbours. it is an interesting question whether chains could form a ring of least bits of matter with a vacuum in the middle, perhaps not.

as for personal space bubbles, a large one may contain personal space bubbles within itself. how alone do you feel? it is not easy for someone surrounded by other people in real space to experience solipsism you would think.


December 25, 2015

Conscious Think

Filed under: consciousness, philosophy, think — rainfeeder @ 4:48 am

conscious think:

it is apparent that the conscious person is, if you like, in the driver’s seat in life. you have, in fixed real space, an immobile clump of matter, call it consciousness, or think, surrounded by light, sound, in a working system, and consciousness manipulates the field around it. “brain in a vat” is quite a material description, and what is material, after all? light makes illusion and what seems material is in some sense a trick of the light, the material can be seen, first of all. indeed, the material involves light and its rules and the sense of touch. in reality the think matter in your head is surrounded by different matter, least bits of matter connected in a numerically huge network, all chained together.

you might think that consciousness is special, as it is the driver. it seems the field around it is all for the driver, so to speak. or you could think that the consciousness has a job, a responsibility, as it has control. but really, what can the consciousness know but its own consciousness first of all, is that why consciousness is special?

what is thought? well, you can think about light, sound, that is, other types of matter, very real things, or it could become abstract. why do we use language? what is the power of certain words? unique words change the think crystals in our heads a certain way, we arrive at something abstract. posit that our native languages are not truly learned with any effort, that such a language with its words naturally lead to certain states of meaning in our heads.

the question becomes what is the limit of abstract thought? it is noticeable, asleep, we have thoughts that we cannot define or easily explain, a general mood often being the only explanation. while we are awake, the think is less abstract, we often think about light and sound, that’s where the bias is. asleep, it is more abstract.

what is the original state of consciousness? is there a cycle in which reset to the original states for each think least bit of matter happens? well, can we remember time zero? what is the original balance between real and abstract thought?


October 24, 2015

To Give Lie to History and Its Ornamental Exposition

Filed under: history — rainfeeder @ 1:07 pm

to give lie to history and its ornamental exposition:

to any student of history, contradictory or alternative accounts bring into the mind a certain dissonance, and thus doubt. is such history true record or merely rather abstract, imaginative collections of themes and stories that blend detail with archetype, action with motive, paranoia with ambition, event with hyperbole, and so on? are these myths or legends, are these historical characters alive all around us, and in us even? and do we play up to history?

i mean, if we assume that the worst, which we all think about in our most paranoid state, does not actually happen, what then? is this an existential problem? a lot of bad things don’t happen to us personally, but could they be real for other people? war is a series of motions, to be quite neutral about it, but i digress. and exaggeration works to stimulate interest, and symbolism and imagery impress the reader.

now this is a world of complexes, this is a metaphysical truth, there are, if you like, bundles of ideas and words and images that come together, either without much conscious effort, or with. to lie down and let your imagination wander happens to everyone. to deconstruct and interpret the most gaudy work of history, we should recognize the ornamental nature of its exposition. imagine the bright, colourful illustrations, the portraits, the weapons, the machines, the vehicles, the maps, the treasure, the clothes, the food, the banquets, the marriages. it would deal with the themes of rivalry, war, romance, ambition, failure, birth, life and death, family, travel, religion, politics, and change. now all these things affect everyone. how much are you like anyone in history? how much of history is true about you?

to be philosophical, the truest record of history that you could truly know, without contact with anyone else, would be your own diary, if you kept one. also, that people think about false things is without doubt. that a crazy mind might see and read false things is the next logical step. and that any record is perhaps unstable and liable to mutation is also true, as time means change.


October 19, 2015

The Porosity of the 3D Audio Visual Projection Field

Filed under: 3D audio visual projection field, metaphysics — rainfeeder @ 2:48 am

the porosity of the 3D audio visual projection field:

“so i think about my eyesight and hearing…we’re audio visual animals, but i’m sure i’m not entirely what i see and hear right? there are other things, invisible to me, around me…the whole computer thing now, the cloud, i’m surrounded by an invisible cloud of information, and there’s the whole machinery of everything that connects me to Earth, that controls what i see and hear, right? what do i call it, my eyesight and hearing? i think i’ll call it the 3D audio visual projection field. and maybe everything you see exists in micro form, and it’s encoded too, and then it is projected somehow in front of me, i can see it, and you know of course we can see what others see too.”

“that’s how we live in the same world, Earth.”

“right. the problem i have is how does it seem so solid, what i see, that it seems like that’s all that’s there? i have a focus, i see what i focus on, the rest not so clear, but how can there be anything else that’s there, in the focus area?”

“here i think we have to deal with the porosity of the field, what you see seems solid, seems a contiguous image with no gaps, but it’s simply not true. the 3D audio visual projection field, the 3DAVPF, is porous, there are gaps.”

“right, so maybe it seems there are no gaps, but an image that seems planar, seems contiguous, it’s still projected at various distances so only seems non-porous.”

“right. the question is how much of matter is used at the focus to render images and sound in the 3D audio visual projection field? 20%? 70%?”

“you know it seems most of it. it’s ridiculous that it seems 100% of course. how much power does the 3DAVPF use, if we thought about it terms of electricity, like an electrical machine? i mean no wonder it’s exhausting to be awake for a long time, it uses so much electrical power.”


October 17, 2015

Elements of the Tragedy of Menemeides and Amronoeia

Filed under: Amronoeia, Greek, Greek tragedy, Menemeides — rainfeeder @ 6:48 am

elements of the tragedy of Menemeides and Amronoeia:

what of love lost, a failed romance, to scar forever the hearts of the couple involved? and from heartbreak to the death of romantic feeling, Menemeides and Amronoeia turned away from each other, both abandoned, a vacuum where love once grew, now empty.

perhaps only the capricious in heart could fall in love so easily, for just as unaccountable as the end was when it came, so too was the premise of this romantic adventure. Menemeides, in temperament, was not a proud man, nor one for excessive vainglory in life. Fate placed the couple together, and for a time, it was wondrous in experience. Menemeides thought Amronoeia very nice and he validated her sense of self. Amronoeia was loquacious and had an easy charm about her. however she, and perhaps Menemeides too, in his own way, were both judgmental in nature and placed value in conversation.

now easy words from loose tongues turn, when angry, confused and frustrated, and in haste, and when enveloped by the toxic atmosphere of prejudice and envy, to harsh words. that a couple should come together, that two worlds should be connected, is not an unobserved event. perhaps the goddesses watch, perhaps there were antagonists at work? that Menemeides always hoped perchance to impress with his words, that it seemed Amronoeia cared not came as a cruel blow to him. that his pride suffered is not true, for he was not proud, and do very proud people ever fall in love, truly? he felt only sorrow. and his silence seemed to Amronoeia that he now cared little or nothing.

now the audience may judge that Menemeides did not feel respect adequately, neither for himself first of all, for his sorrow lessened his faith in his own capacity distorting his self opinion to a grotesque caricature of inadequacy, and of course secondly, for Amronoeia. he simply could not forgive nor accept Amronoeia for what she was, someone who makes mistakes she regrets. of course Menemeides was capable of more. he could not see himself as the provider of comfort or a person of responsibility. Amronoeia, searching for signs that his love was not killed by one instance of a horrible malefication of words was heartbroken by the seeming absence of his love now.

it should be stated that for anyone to hold the spoken word as important, always risks the chance that it will turn tragic for just as free thought is out of our control sometimes, so is the spoken word or speech.


October 15, 2015

To Give Expression to Another

Filed under: emotional expression — rainfeeder @ 6:05 am

to give expression to another:

on meeting it is often somewhat surprising what transpires sometimes, is it mere exchange of words, a glance in the direction of another’s face, or rather, much much more? what exactly is given? it is a fallacy that light is all the same, it is a fallacy then, much more obviously, that all words sound the same, that words may be delivered in an accent unique to the individual, is plain to all. a person has its own light, it may have its own sound, to remove the concept of the personal unique from science is a grave omission, is it not? what matter is here may not be what matter is elsewhere, it may not be the same or even similar in quality.

an emotional expression, often realized in the face of another, or cast in an aura that stretches across space, is not exactly easily definable, perhaps, but rather evident sometimes. what is it? is it about the other person’s emotions, of want and happy perhaps, or their light, or some complex of thoughts and ideas, or a mixture?

it would be remiss of any final form of science or metaphysics, to make an omission of this, to refuse to deal with this subject at all. that we are affected by others’ emotions is not to be refuted. the original state of people’s minds and their emotions and thoughts is not to be neglected. modernity, meeting, change, all these things conspire to transform, what people originally were may be shocking, the unreconstructed form of the person at time zero.

on the obvious, most meetings are about exchange of words. we could muse whether we hear exactly the sound at the other end of the audio stream, the voice of the other person, but this seems futile. we attach great import to what is actually said, more than what they think. but why? people do not necessarily say what they truly want to say or believe. in an angry moment, they might make a complete nonsense of speech, and live to regret what they said.

emotional expression, hard to qualify, but easy to recognize, is rather a volatile condition, certainly at target distance. even for yourself, it is somewhat of a delicate balancing act.


September 26, 2015

Historical Legend and Effect

Filed under: English history, history, legend, myth — rainfeeder @ 4:26 pm

historical legend and effect:

history may seem remote, it may seem dense, somewhat impenetrable, almost irrelevant in its obscurity, sometimes. with the advent of historical fiction, gross revisionism, and the change of focus in the media, what is history and what is legend, or myth, remains a matter of some confusion. how the historian deals with facts and figures of note, how he or she fashions it into a work of history, ready to be read, is a question that many have. the answer is that the historian writes about what is important or clear to him or her, in his or her own mind, primarily.

that truly the world population is static, or that the population of the universe never really changes is a concept. all the people that ever were, still are, and always will be. do people really change?

English history, with the Anglo Saxons, with their short, monosyllabic words, and halting style, the historical legends that everyone has heard of, Merlin the wizard, King Henry VIII and his marriage troubles, Robin Hood, the Magna Carta, and the English sense of fairness, in fair play, in a fair deal, and the Court of Elizabeth I and the favourite, Earl of Essex, and the Court of James I and the favourite, Duke of Buckingham. in all these historical legends, there is the faintest sense of failure in all these accounts. personal relationships are key, what is one without the other? how did the man who became Duke of Buckingham catch the eye of James I? and without the king, what of Buckingham?

that history itself survives is a testament to its relevance. types persist, circumstances repeat themselves, though granted, it is most shocking to see history replay itself in public!


September 23, 2015

The Return of the Ideas

Filed under: idea, think, thought — rainfeeder @ 4:57 pm

the return of the ideas:

“so i had this idea years ago, actually, several ideas, maybe a couple, you know, 2, maybe 3. and this idea just came to me. i was somewhere, maybe i was in public doing my shopping or whatever, and i just thought of this thing, and i’ve been wondering about this all my life.”

“when did you have this idea?”

“i don’t know, maybe 17 or 18 years ago. i had a full mental life then, you know? i don’t know what happened. maybe i got tired, maybe i got old, or something.”

“so, in your subconscious, or your unconscious? you’ve had this a long time. when other ideas attach themselves, i don’t know, maybe you have something. it’s a little dangerous.”

“dangerous? i’ve never had a lot of time in my life, maybe if i had more time? anyway, i can see the danger in a lot of things.”

“life is dangerous? so what? tell me about this idea.”

“well, to go into it in any depth would only reveal my inadequacy at explaining things in detail. so, anyway, i put this old idea together with another idea, and bang, suddenly comprehension. you know what it seems?”

“anyone can do it? if you only thought about putting different ideas together, magic would happen? it’s a tired story.”

“really, i didn’t say it was easy. you’re too hard on yourself, i think. maybe i’m too easy. i don’t know.”

“you think i’m hard on myself? you have no idea. sometimes. i get bored and then i get angry. i think, you don’t have the time for this. anyway, so you put a few ideas together in a new way and you get what? the realization that they are related concepts in reality?”

“exactly. so, you seem you know a lot about this. it’s deceptive. you think, why didn’t i think of this then. if only…”

“it’s like history. history gets revised. it’s called revisionism.”

“well that’s brutal. but true. i guess we’re getting there. at least i hope so.”

“let’s hope so.”


September 15, 2015

The Ego Obstacle

Filed under: ego, philosophy, social — rainfeeder @ 6:26 pm

the ego obstacle:

to have an ego is embarrassing at times, the big i am on the spot, the things you don’t want other people to know about yourself necessarily. an ego may be an obstacle in human relations. when it’s entirely about me how could it be about you therefore?

what does the ego want? can it happen? the ego is value judgmental, is obstinate, is inclined toward angry outbursts when it is frustrated. okay, i don’t want all this…

when it is true, the ego provides a measure of security, to be clear about what you are is not always a bad thing. but to be self obsessed in company presents a difficult situation. to have a running battle with your own ego demand and what other people want in the situation is hard. you could wax lyrical about yourself but you remain without the sympathy of the crowd.


September 5, 2015

An Age to Tell

Filed under: biography, Tim Ma — rainfeeder @ 10:44 am

an age to tell:

he complained of recurring nightmares of school, the people unrecognizable and the school the same. typically, in senior school, in the corridors and not in class, identities remained as before. this was a reminder that he remained in some part, forever a pupil or undergraduate.

of his school report in the third year of primary school, ages six to seven, in Bermuda, it read thus that he was far too talkative, a disruptive influence on the other pupils. in Fifth Form, in Britain, his Chemistry master criticized his attitude in class.

attention to detail and a continuing interest in the arcane subjects separated him from others. expertise in one small area details your niche in life. unexpected success made his situation doubly ironic, for although he was noted for his study, he never attended graduation ceremony and he was famous in the world of academia, yet never had to speak of it in public.


August 28, 2015

The Way of Drowsy

Filed under: drowsy, sleep — rainfeeder @ 11:58 am

the way of drowsy:

how sleep first happened, let’s examine that, so a lot to think about the first day, many questions, so we can conclude drowsiness led from mental exhaustion, originally. people who think a lot, who really push, fall asleep in a snap moment.

now a lot of people are into physical exercise, they find that works too, a slow slide to sleep.

traditionally, dinner was most important, from dusk into the early hours of the night, and it was huge compared to breakfast and lunch. after dinner, rather faint, stagger to bed, finding a position, and to sleep.

these ways kill the wide awake state.

what is being asleep? in my experience, cloudy vague thoughts, lucidity gone, and a reset in sensation or feeling.


August 21, 2015

Of Aglypssinia

Filed under: Aglypssinia — rainfeeder @ 4:12 pm

of aglypssinia:

and the world was
of Aglypssinia
in that year
the people pondered thus
where was the world
to bridge all worlds
to divide all that was common
to share in the fruit of the harvest
that could be given without expense
the gods
the demigods
the nymphs
the sylphs
the boys and the girls
a dancing party of men and women
here to say but nothing else
and at night
a shimmering image of person
a fork in the way
where to turn next
and the days passed
relaxing in the garden outside
a shining beacon of hope
turn away turn away
where to the future we move


Lifting the Pipeline

Filed under: metaphysics, philosophy, pipeline — rainfeeder @ 12:26 am

lifting the pipeline:

crisscrossing real space is a network of these lines, these pipelines are lines of attack, composed of least bits of matter joined together changing their neighbours to transfer a difference in state through the pipeline. when the other side somewhere else is passive, a flurry of change near the start end lifts the pipeline, so to speak, forcing a delivery of change at the other end.

damage to the pipeline means it is blocked. when unblocked one end has reset.

the social network depends on the integrity of these pipelines. activity in zones in space can disrupt the pipelines.


August 16, 2015

An Ironic Delight

Filed under: business, ironic — rainfeeder @ 6:50 pm

an ironic delight:

“it was so fascinating…”

“he is! well dodgy, inni, what a cunt! wonderful person!”

“well it’s not that bad.”

“isn’t it? i know you think that. but i’m not sure.”

“look. it’s going well. there’s no problem yet. it hasn’t surfaced.”

“so why’s it like that? i think it will be all right…you know?”



Queen Bee in the Hallway

Filed under: queen bee, talk — rainfeeder @ 4:38 pm

queen bee in the hallway:

“there must be something in it…why do i have to wait?”

“there’s more to…maybe we should go.”

“do i reek? i’ve been over there forever. really, i just want to get it all over with.”

“come on Jessica. let’s go.”

“okay, i guess. we’ll go. i can’t wait around.”


“oh hi…i’m Jessica. these are my acolytes.”

“where are you going?”

“i don’t know yet. it’s getting really uncomfortable around here. do you have any ideas?”

“what about the library?”

“the library. sure, why not? Julie, my husband tells me I should loosen up. what do you think? i agree.”

“your what?”

“oh i got married when i was five. let’s go to the library!”


August 9, 2015

Das Mädchen für die Zeit

Filed under: das Mädchen, restaurant — rainfeeder @ 5:03 am

das mädchen für die zeit:




“Das Mädchen. Hier.”

“Danke schön!”

“Wir haben ein grosse Menü. Das Hotel ist das grösste. Shopping. Clothes. Bar.”

“Danke. Wir haben das set Menü bitte.”

“Das Mädchen? Fräulein? Was haben Sie?”

“Nein. Bitte.”

“Die Rechnung? Was kostet das?”

“Ein moment. Hier.”

“Danke schön!”

“Bitte schön!”


August 4, 2015

A Person and the Other

Filed under: metaphysics, other person, person, philosophy, space, time — rainfeeder @ 5:58 pm

a person and the other:

the line of futile questioning goes something like this, why do i exist, of course, there is no explanation for why you or reality exists, you simply must accept that it does, that you exist, that other people exist, there is no why. for when does it make sense to ask why? the usual answer to why, actually, is that something came before, that before C and D came A and B. to think of all that exists in real space may boggle the mind, for you only knew so much at the beginning of time, barely yourself, actually.

in my case, as it began at time zero, a mist covered landscape, stones, trees, blue sky, dim light, walking forwards, in a dress, thinking, the sound of my name, this is my story. to deal with the personal in science seems almost a contradiction in terms, the bias in 20th Century AD science is that all is impersonal and that the same applies everywhere, only quantum mechanics seems to accept that the personal matters. in considering real space, composed of chains of least bits of matter, it would be simplistic to quickly divide up the total map of reality into personal zones, everyone in their own personal bubble space, space could look like a chained mass of soap bubbles, each soap bubble representing a person.

now very much hangs on the question, what is a person? now, i could see a lot at the beginning, i thought thoughts in my head, and what i saw was connected to my head. of course, i cannot see to infinity, at some point my vision ends. assume particle traffic between points in my own personal bubble space is high, internal communication is high. so what limits could there be between two people? the range of personal light? the range of personal think matter?

why are there many people? well, why are there many least bits of matter?

i admit i cannot remember thinking about other people at the beginning, at time zero. i held only myself in mind. that the population seemed ever higher with time was true, beyond what most people could think about. that other people are different in some ways seems true, if only in that they could not be the same as you yourself.


August 1, 2015

Solipsism and the Independent

Filed under: conversation, independent, metaphysics, philosophy, solipsism — rainfeeder @ 5:01 pm

solipsism and the independent:

“i’m made up of lots of parts. i am the sum total of my parts, right? are any of my parts alone? not really! so of course i can’t really believe in this total aloneness. can i see what other people see? all i know is me and what comes from elsewhere.”

“tell me about what you think of yourself. why do you think of yourself as a dependent person.”

“maybe i know myself very well maybe i don’t, sure, i surprise myself sometimes but i’m not as shocking as other people! the question is whether you think of all of this reality as a whole. i think of it as connected parts. so you see i read other people’s work, stuff i couldn’t possibly come up with on my own, so i know other people are real, in as far as i define a unique person. i depend on other people. of course, still, i have to manage my life.”

“do you prefer your own company? what are your thoughts?”

“i don’t know. other people are something i can’t fully comprehend.”

“your focus determines a lot. you can only think about so much at a time. where none of this concerns you could be happening right now and you might never know. where you become independent is when you realize you’re on your own out there.”

“i find solipsism very frightening. yet i know it can’t be true.”

“you’re your own man. you look for company. but you should realize that sometimes all that matters is what’s going on with you yourself.”


July 26, 2015

An Economic Perspective: Level Middle Class

Filed under: economics, level middle class — rainfeeder @ 1:44 pm

an economic perspective level middle class:

by this i mean really in the middle economically, it’s both interesting from a behavioral economic view and from a social perspective, economists are interested in how they behave as agents in the economy, to judge what is happening right now and what will probably happen in the future.

by “level” read completely average, so employed, young probably or middle aged, a real consumer to be monitored. but how could an economically unactive or inactive person be considered middle class anyway? we assume that the middle class is the largest group today by income and wealth comparison.

what is the upper class? the richest, most powerful? economically this is true but social distinctions confuse the issue. there is a legacy that remains in the collective memory. that society economically observed is mobile or fluid is the case.

spending drives the economy. watch the young household, with children, they need all kinds of consumer goods and services, leisure and entertainment. the young tend to spend freely. older people, with retirement looming and no further income guaranteed, may be more cautious and become economically less important.

the level middle class make the pace. socially, of course, they are not necessarily a cohesive group, in that they mix only with each other, that’s probably not the case. the 27 year old male, level middle class, working, average income, shops a lot, goes on holidays, has friends and family, may not stay in the same class all his life though.

level middle class demand is what determines a large proportion of supply in the economy.


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